kokoro no itade: (an emotional injury)

don't ask me what happened to her cause honestly I don't know T_T this is just something that came out of my scetchbook that I decided to use for class.

I've worked so hard on this... and I'm sad to say I absolutely HATE it.... it makes me sick...
It's taken all this effort and it doesn't look like how I planned.
I spent all this money to stretch the canvas myself and wasted all this time, ending up with a horrible contorted canvas (what happens when you stretch canvas too tight) It was a huge size and i couldn't afford to buy the 'nice' expensive stretcher bars which are apparently the only kind you can use to stretch big canvases without it becoming distorted. It took up my whole tub of gesso and still wasn't enough to keep the paint from soaking in entirely T_T THEN, transferring this thing was.. UGH... my projector is bad anyways but with the skewed canvas it made the proportions even worse, so her head and shoulders are much too big *sobs*

I swear to God next time I'm buying canvas pre-assembled.

And don't even get me started on what a pain in the ass it was to transport between school and home

Although, i do like how her face came out ,and the hand with the cigarette. Maybe it will grow on me


Materials:
approx. 38"x 54" canvas
-oil paints, stand oil, liquin, and painting medium
-texture at bottom: Old ratty washcloths and knotted canvas string

Macabre Series